Why?

Why are we so afraid to hear
The words "You have cancer"?
I really don't know why.
I don't have an answer.

We are shocked that life may end
And then next, we ask, "Why?"
Is it that we think we are immortal,
And that we should never die?

I'll never forget those three words;
It was like a bolt of lightning.
Many things went through my mind
And I found it so frightening.

How will my family go on without me?
These thoughts ran through my head.
Will they grieve for me?
What will happen after I'm dead?

Will someone preserve my keepsakes,
Or will they be thrown in the trash?
I don't want them put in a yard sale
To be sold for a little cash.

Will my spouse outlive me?
Will he soon be on his own?
Will I live to see my children marry
And to see my grandkids grown?

How will other remember me?
What will be put on my grave?
Will my loved ones cry for me?
Or will they just smile and wave?

I have always done the best I could . . .
Lived life to its fullest, with a little fun.
Have I fulfilled my purpose in this life?
Is my work here on earth now done?

I know we shouldn't ask God "Why,"
Complain and make such a fuss--
But we're only trying to understand
Something much bigger than us.

Then there was the surgery, 
And they handed me the bill.
But will the cancer come back. . .
There is a chance that it will.

Will I now live in fear
And put my life on hold?
How can I put it behind me
After what I've been told?

But God looked down on me and said,
"My child, never fear -- I will be there.
I'll never leave you nor forsake you,
And you know that I care."

So, this is what I plan to do . . .
Each day, just go on with my life.
Make the best of the time I have left,
And be a good mother and wife.

To rely on God each day
Is my ultimate goal. . .
Keeping hope in my heart
And joy in my soul.

Life is but a fleeting moment. . .
It is gone within a blink of an eye.
Then we're called to be taken up
To our heavenly home in the sky.
 

 
by Shirley Evans
(a cancer survivor)
July 2003
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